Enjoy your Symptoms!

I am working to enjoying my mental health issues, celebrate instead of fight my madness and know better my maladies.  So this goes into my spirit illnesses and I want to flush it out more.  As this is a working blog, much more my journal than anything that I have pressure to present, I am changing the idea of spirit illnesses.  This is my new change

Tiger of depression

Rhino of head aches

Scary cat of Anxiety

And my fatigue hippo

Goals

For years I have avoided goals, as it often does two things to me when I have a lot of personal goals.
1. I keep it up for a while, putting a lot of work into it, then can't keep it up and fall apart into a mass of depression and hopelessness
2. I feel like I am so far from who I was or who I need to be that it is hopeless to start

Now I am ready to try again, with no reassurance that anything will be different.  Also I have my baby coming in 2 weeks and I hear "It changes everything" which sounds great to me.

Goals
1. Become more personable.  I like that word, and I like the mental picture I get when I focus on that word
2. Exercise regularly
3. Have a much more stable schedule for my evening hours.  Exercise at 19:00 while watching television, watch a short show with super stace at 20:00.  Be in Bed by 21:00 and read till I fall asleep
4. Adapt and survive the first few months of Hurricane Soletta.

Goals for my personalities for the rest of the year

I have realized that not only do I need more balance between my personalities, I need more maturity from them as well.
Derrick needs to point his aggressiveness away from individuals and towards systems. Time with Addie would help him well
Ryan needs to move his idealism from anxiety and expectation to opportunity. He needs to spend time with Bear Hawk
Jeremy needs to move his love of educating from having to be an expert to being incredibly curious. I think I need him to spend time with my transitional object, pooh bear