anhedonia

Anhedonia: Loss of the capacity to experience pleasure. The inability to gain pleasure from normally pleasurable experiences. I don't know if I loose all pleasure, just most of it. But this is even worse for me, because I remove all the things from my life that offer no hope of pleasure. Cleaning, exercise, cooking, social interactions all sound terrible and exhausting, so I don't do them. Eating, sleeping and watching TV, while not nearly as pleasurable, become all of my focus because they offer some hope of removing suffering right away. It is not like I put hope in them, it is that I can't withstand anything else